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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Happy Birthday, Malaysia..:)


Merdeka!.....Merdeka!!.....Merdeka!!!....The roar of independence resonated throughout Merdeka Square by the then Prime Minister of Malaysia, Almarhum Tunku Abdul Rahman, on the 31st of August 1957.

And the spirit of Merdeka lives on until now, with today being the 47th year our beloved country, Malaysia gained her Independence from the British rule. Today we celebrate the 47th Independence day of Malaysia in full of pride and achievements, with our Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Abdullah bin Hj Ahmad Badawi saying that we had already came a great distance in our progress, from the time of our founding forefathers right up till now. He said in His speech that we shouldn’t le go of our roots, and we as the young generation should always remember how our fathers fought for Independence.

I stayed up till the wee hours of the morning watching the various life telecast of events and happenings around the country. From Northern Perlis till Southern Johor, including Sabah and Sarawak, p[people form all walks of life, regardless of race, religion and age, came together to ushered in the country’s independence in style. From singing to dancing, performance to speeches, the whole country had instantly turned into a lively hive of activities, with everyone, from the young to the old, VIP to the farmers, they just came together and sing patriotic songs and performed their various dance. I was looking in amazement at how peaceful Malaysia was.

The stability and the peacefulness of our country had earned loads of praises from tourists and the like all around the world. Unlike other countries, where we may have heard of brutal massacred of people, and fatal bombings of cars and building, Malaysia experienced none of those. And to say Malaysia is indeed a safe country is absolutely true. Like what our former Prime Minister, Tun Dr. Mahathir Mohamad said in his inaugural Merdeka Speech last year that all Malaysian could live together in harmony and peace is indeed a testimony of our country’s fame and honor. And echoing his thoughts was Datuk Seri Abdullah, who said that our younger generation shouldn’t forget what our leaders had done for us, and to ensure that our country will continue to progress lies in the hand of all our youth, because youths are the leaders of tomorrow.

I am so glad and blessed to be born in Malaysia, without war, without major city riots, without dissention among leaders, without major terrorist threats, what else could one asked for in return? I read one of the newspaper special pull-out in conjunction with Independence Day, and the article mentioned about how fortunate and lucky the writer can go to work without afraid of planes crashing into building, without being afraid of her car exploding, without being afraid of being slaughtered on the street. It may sound ironic to have such comments published on the media, but this is the fact. Malaysia is indeed a safe and wonderful country to be in, nd I really thank our 5 Prime Ministers, who had done a great and marvelous job in leading the country to great heights. Without them, I doubt our country could have reached such a stage.

I Love to be Malaysian. Happy 47th Birthday, Malaysia!!


Long time no see....

Hi guys, sorry for the inactivity of my blog for this past days, as I have been away from my computer. I shall update you all here now J

YAY…after 2 weeks of mind torturing and stressful killer examination, holidays had just started, and I’m in my comfy home now.. its so happy to be back, eating home-cook food, being in the bonding of my family, wow, its fantastic.

On Saturday morning, I had my final paper for the semester, and it’s called Theater (Acting). Yea u heard it right, its acting, so basically we had to come up with an imaginary story based on some newspaper cutting. I had a wonderful time writing out a story, as this is my first story writing for an examination since I was back at high school. Phew, I am sure glad that the paper is over, and I can go back home in the afternoon.

During the night, my family went for a birthday celebration at a restaurant some where in Jinjang. Its my nephew’s (What??? You’re an uncle now??) birthday. All relatives are invited, and the menu was great, had chicken, pork, vegetable, and as with all Chinese cuisine, we can’t leave out shark fin soup can we?? Hehehe….it was really a mouthwatering moments for me as I have not been having such sumptuous meal for 2 weeks. I am really blessed by all my relatives, who turn out during the dinner gathering, and by the way, in case you are wondering what my nephew’s age is, he is only 1 year old. Hahahahaha…..

Sunday

Today is pre-merdeka-eve, and me and my dad went up to Perak, where my hometown is. We went and visit my grandparent, who lived in Batu Gajah. Had a wonderful and pleasant 2 hours journey back home, and I had great fun talking to dad, who advised me with a lot of things.:) Soon after we reached our destination, my grandma was on hand to great me, and she puts on her sweetest smile for me as I have not visited her for almost 1 and a half months. I must admit though, that I missed being in Batu Gajah, and I missed my grandparents as well. So the first thing I do when I get back was to helped out in the garden like watering the plants, to pull out the weeds, and also I get myself busy with sweeping the pouch, plus raking the leaves. Hehehe, soon the house’s garden looks like it had been maintained by a gardener 24/7, where in actual fact it is only kept tidy when I get back home.

Phew, after the days work and getting wet all over, I adjourned for a cool and refreshing shower, and we had dinner out in Ipoh after that. The food was ermm, ok, but lacks the professionalism in the quality of the food itself. Then we had a walk in the supermarket, named the Ocean Plaza in Pengkalan (wherever that is). My uncle joined us for dinner too, and I had a talk with my 2 cousins, who is having their STPM and SPM end of this year. I had some words of encouragement for them, and just hope that they will score with flying colors this coming examination.

Today also marks the closing of the 28th Olympiad games in Athens, Greek, and I had the chance to watched the closing ceremony of Athens 2004 live on TV, and what a spectacular and a magnificent finish to the games, as dancers just performed their best, singers filled the 100’000 capacity stadium with their superb voices, performances which showcased the culture and lifestyle of the people of Greece, speeches which made the people stand and gazed in awe of the splendors and the significance of the games. What I like when it comes to people giving speech at a particular function is the meaning behind the words. “Athens is awesome for the athletes, but the Games are great for the Greeks…” a portion of the speech read by the president of the Organizing committee of Athens 2004.” And also “Don’t forget to give back to the games what the games has given to you” a portion of speech by the president of the International Olympic Council (IOC). This made me thrilled and amazed at the significance of the meaning of the Olympic games. Its only held every four years once, and the games had made its way back to its founding city, Greece. The next Olympic Games in 2008 will be held in Beijing, China, and we as Asian can be proud of this, because this is the 3rd time the Olympic games had been held in the region of Asia. What a privilege we have.

After the closing ceremony, which is Malaysian time 5.10AM, I get down to bed, and awoke at 1.10PM on Monday, hehehe….what a cool time to sleep and wake up. Nothing much happened on Monday, except that at around 5, my cousin came, and we talk and talk about everything under the sun. We had dinner at my grandparent’s house, and soon at 9PM, me and daddy bade farewell to my grandparent and uncle. My grandma doesn’t want me to leave, as her expression is kind of sad. I reached home in PJ around 11PM, and here I am, typing out all that had happened to me regarding my 5 days of disappearance.

And not to forget, today (Tuesday, August 31, 2004) marks the 47th Independence of Malaysia. Selamat Hari Merdeka!!!!!

C ya next round. It is getting kinda late. Gnite



Friday, August 27, 2004

Helpless and devastated.....

Been having sleepless night recently. I don't know whether is because of exam stress or not, but the feeling of not sleeping doesn't comes from books, or any academic matter, for i know, i've studied alot, and been able to recall what i've studied in the exam. No, its the feeling of being betrayed, and being looked down by some one I trusted, some one i cared for, and some one I who is my closest friend.

Looks like every one in some part of their life, will go through some stages of testing. Testing of maturity, testing of faith, testing that comes from above. But somehow, I can’t managed to pass the test, its somewhat ironic I should say, a friend just come and stab you at the back, although some may think," well, what do you know? You are a big boy, stopped putting childish things above your life." But then the feeling of anger, and hatred just burns out when my friend do this to me.

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Sadness, bitterness and anger
Are just part of being emotional
Love, hope and trust
Being robbed away by he who wants


I can’t go on
Without the guidance of some one
I can’t live on
To face the reality of being scorned upon


Without you by my side
Things go wrong in my life
I should admit that I am not in delight
Of you being away from my sight


Friends come, and friends go
But tears come, and always will flow
Over and over out from the depths of my ego
I can’t wait to see, if there’s any tomorrow


Lord, I have been sad and broken
Only You are the way to Heaven
I trusted in You for Salvation
And though all these things are already given
But there seemed to me, all this are an illusion
Of me being kept in delusion


Lord, forgive me my iniquities
For You have been true and just to me
I’ve made You too small and I’ve not seen
The greatness and the power of Him


I surrender my heart, my thoughts and my life
To You without keeping anything inside
i would like to say Bye bye
To all the problems that make me fried


-Jowen-




Why?

How I wish I could be
A big big fish under the sea
Where worries don’t exist
and temptation that can be resist

How I wish life is good
Where war and famine just “poof”
Without the lust and hatred that could
bring destruction and misery to a boast

Man, life’s now is just so hard
Where all good things have come to past
Where feelings and emotions controlled my parts
and I cry out for just
a path that would lead me to happiness and not to be bust

Great are you O God
Who have brought me out from bottom to top
That I may see the greatness of my life
Not clouded or blurred by my own thoughts

Never have I felt
What I am feeling now
Anger, bitterness, hatred
Why
I can’t comprehend, I can’t understand
The world is still rotating
The birds are still flying
The sun is still rising and setting at its own time
But me
I am still here, so broken, so blinded, and so much in pain
For the things that I’ve not done
For the path that I’ve not taken

“ For I know the plans I have for you, declares The Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, Plans to give you a hope and a future ” Jeremiah 29:11

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Great time , and The Wan's family

YAY…..YAY…….Exams are over, I am freeeeeeeee, unofficially. The last paper being on this Saturday, which is my Co-curriculum paper, Theater, But who cares, at least all rhe tough ones are over…hehehe….The paper today wasn’t tough, but just that couldn’t concentrate and focus because I was thinking bout the holidays more then doing the paper, Oh well, Its all OvEr, and its done for!!:D

Things are getting a much more better for me now, without the preassure of exams that kept n on bogging me, , been able to trust God more and able to do my QT more often now, thank God for his spirit and guidance. Can’t wait to be out of Cyberjaya to my comfy home, and can’t wait to meet up with my school friends back home. well, just have 3 more days to go…. I had lunch with a good friend of mine yesterday, and it really blesses me as I get to share things with this friend, and also got to hear from this person as well, hehehe

Just to rap up this blog, here’s a story from the Internet, and it does make people laugh, at least for me it does. Enjoy your days, friends…:D

Lee Sum Wan : Hello can i speak to Annie Wan
Mr Sori : Yes u could speak to me.
Lee Sum Wan : No, i want to speak to Annie Wan!
Mr Sori : You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Lee Sum Wan : Im Sum Wan. And i need to talk to Annie Wan! Its urgent.
Mr Sori : I! know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone! But whats this urgent matter about?
Lee Sum Wan : Well just tell my sister An nie Wan that our brother was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured and now Noe wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now Avery Wan is going to the hospital.
Mr Sori : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital from the accident that is'nt an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but i dont have time for this!!!
Lee Sum Wan : You are rude. Who are you?
Mr Sori : Im Sori.
Lee Sum Wan : You should be sorry. Now give me your name!
Mr Sori : Im Sori!!
Lee Sum Wan : I dont like your tone of your voice. Like i said i dont care which one of your aunt screws everybody and i also know that not everybody works here! Jeez!!!
Lee Sum Wan : Wheech Wan is my sis!
Mr. Sori : I don't know which one is yr sis! Why in gods name u think i do!?Look i got work to do and if i'm feeling mischievious i'll broadcast it on the P.A system saying. "Attention, someone called and said that anyones brother just got involved in an accident. But not to worry no one got injured and no one was sent to the hospital. But everyone is going to the hospital anyways. The father maybe a somebody but if u're their uncle, u're a nobody. "how bout that!?

Toot....Toot....Toot.................

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

.....Living life the fun way.....

Had a wonderful time of feasting today, and its something which I’ve never done before. Had for myself 10 pieces of bread and a cup of Milo for Brunch ( Breakfast + Lunch ), cause I woke up at around 2.30PM, and felt lazy to go down to but food. Managed to study for awhile after that, but then still cannot understand, might as well play for a while only continue to study.

Had a wonderful dinner with a friend out in Dengkil, the menu was superb, had “lemon chicken”, “ Tau-Fu”, and “ Choy Sam” ( Dunno what to call that in English)….It’s been a long time since I last chatted with this friend, and the talk before, during, and after dinner was informative and encouraging for both of us, and somehow I got to know that this friend of mine is facing some problems, which I’ve faced before some where in my life. Really had a wonderful time with that friend, and thanks for the transport J

Finally, I was able to study after that sumptuous and delicious meal. I almost got a shock when more then 10 Yahoo messages came by bringing tips for tomorrow test. Boy, I had studied those this afternoon, and really thank God for I do not have to study everything for that subject. Yea, having a test tomorrow on Java programming, and I feel confident for the test.

Before I end this post, here are some jokes to lighten up your days. Check it out, and God bless…..

TEACHER: Didn't you promise to behave?
STUDENT: Yes, Sir.
TEACHER: And didn't I promise to punish you if you didn't?
STUDENT: Yes, Sir, but since I broke my promise, I don't expect you to keep yours.

Ah Beng joined a quiz show and was asked to a name three fruits whose names begin with "A". Ah Beng immediately said "Apple…Apricot…" then he was stumped. After a while, he finally shouted triumphantly,
"Ang Mor Tan!" . The host faints…….

HAROLD : Teacher, would you punish me for something I didn't do?
TEACHER : Of course not.
HAROLD : Good, because I didn't do my homework.

Ah Beng with his two red ears went to his doctor.
The doctor asked him what happened to his ears and he answered," I was ironing a shirt and the phone rang, but instead of picking up the phone, I accidentally picked up the iron and stuck it to my ear. So kena loh!"
"Oh dear!" the doctor exclaimed in disbelief. "But…what happen to the other ear?"
“Aiyah!”, Ah Beng replied with frustration. “That stoooopid dumbo called back!"

TEACHER: Ellen, give me a sentence starting with "I".
ELLEN : I is...
TEACHER: No, Ellen. Always say, "I am."
ELLEN : All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."

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Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Monday BlUeS

Wow….Its been exactly a week since the final exam started, and I have managed to finish 4 papers, and the papers are like, ermmm, Piece of cake?? NOT!!!! Anyway, still have 2 more papers to go, and the last paper is on Saturday, Mien, still have to wait. But then the last paper is just story writing, so I don’t have to worry

Been in the library for the whole day today, from 11.30AM till 11.50PM, and for the first time, I managed to study throughout the 11 something hours I’ve been there. This is the second time I studied in library since the exam started, and this is the first time I managed to stayed in the lib for so long. I went to library with a friend, and coincidentally, he was wearing blue, same color shirt as what I was wearing, Heheheh…….so I went there and studied throughout, and had lunch around 2 at Bus-Stop, we picked up Michelle, and guess what?? She is wearing blue also, geeeees, is this what you call a bluish cult, as what Wee Liem pointed out? I don’t know..:P and this is my first time in 2 years, having lunch off-campus. You can say I don’t know how to appreciate other good food besides campus food, but then again, campus food is the best, Muahahahahhah….:P

I came back and resumed studies, and then Rebecca came too, for her exam is tomorrow (Tuesday), and she was wearing this some what familiar blue jacket, BLUE again?? Ok, well, looks like we are having some standard color for library goers already..:D met up with a few of the CF “kaki” who frequented the library a lot, and a number of them finishes their papers today, WOW, that was fast, and as what Joshua did when he came back from test. “Merdeka, Suffer u people……going back home soon…” that was like indirectly telling us “ C, I finished my exams liao, so free already” So as not to be intimidated by his comments, I just get on with my books and occasionally walking over to my friends table to have a short chat. And you know what?? This is also my first time eating my dinner in front of the library, with food all the way from Tau Café, which is beside the library, hahahahhaaa…… we had “Fat Rice”, which translated to Bahasa Malaysia means “Nasi Lemak”. I had a wonderful dinner with WeeLiem, Michelle, and Edwin. And soon after, Leo join in for a chat, and he was wearing blue too, at least for his jacket’s color. Why is everybody wearing blue today? Hmmm….hard to explain, but till now, there’s 5 of us in blue today, and that makes us AweSoMe!! :P

Things happened normally after dinner, with me still continuing studies, and the rest of the gang straining their brain juice out, for engineering students are having exams tomorrow (Tuesday). Got to wish them all the best, The paper has got nothing to do with engineering stuffs, its just Basic economics and accounting. And we ( IT and Engineering students) have to take that subject before we can graduate, that’s new isn’t it? but then this subject has been in the syllabus for the past 3 years, so I think it shouldn’t be any problem with that.

I reached home around 12.10AM and went on war with my housemates through LAN gaming system for 4 hours. Wanting to sleep after coming back home, but I needed some entertainment after spending practically half a day in the library.

Think it’s time for me to go to bed now. Hope that everything will work out as fine when I wake up. Good Night People…..

“Monday Blues really gives me the GrOoVe!!”

Monday, August 23, 2004

L.O.V.E and Summary

Love is patient
Love is kind
It does not envy
It does not boast
It is not proud
It is not rude
It is not self seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrong.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trust, always hope, always persevere "
1st Corinthians 13:4-7
God's love is amazing. It caan do wonders that nothing in this world can. It can heal the broken, lift up the spirit of those who are down, and to provide hope and encouragement to the weak. I was encouraged by the way those verses were wrote. God has a wonderful plan for us and not to harm us, and his love covers over a multitute of sadness, of bitterness, and of loneliness. Whenver some one is down, try sharing God' love with them.. God may use you to proclaim His love to the people around, and I am gladly being done the same by one of my friend. He has always encouraged me to stand strong in God's Love, and not to be pulled down by the circumstances of this world. Huan may fall , but those who wait upon the Lord will renew their strength. Never have i been so sad before in my life, but is because of the grace and mercy of Him who created me, that i can still stand strong, and because of God's love for me, that i can gladly say, "Your love is amzing, O Lord"
Summary of what happen today->Sunday
Woke up at 11.30 AM (Well, i didnt sleep for at least 48 hours before this), and had a wonderful time Counter Strike-ing with my housemates. ,and as always, i'll be the one who always get headsot, while the rest laughed at me. Went for lunch at around 2.15 PM, and mien, had a scumtous lunch with housemates at the Cyberia shop upstairs. Then went home and finished of some work, and started studying( Jowen, u study?? :P) , and sleep soon overtook my mind. went to have a short nap, and indeed, had 3 hours of nap till about 6PM( Thats more like SlEeP) . parents came over around 9PM, and oh boy, had home cook food to eat, and it's SUpEr DeliCious. Thanks mum and dad for making your way here just to bring me food...:D . Had 3 rounds of War-Crafting with my housemates, and it somehow drains my energy and also my brain power.
Soon aftter the loooooong game of waring, its time again to go to bed. I've slept alot today, and feel like doing it again, so before i go, just wanna say Good NIght, and hope that the following day will be a better day......
Ciaoz.....:)

Sunday, August 22, 2004

ToDay In HiStOry

Yawn…..its already so late, and I am still awake, with full of thoughts floating in my head. Before I forget, I better write it down here…..

Had my first killer paper at 9 O Clock yesterday morning, and prior to that, I just had 3 hours sleep, from 12AM to about 3 AM, then started studying for the papers that could determine my grades for this semester. Studied bout 50% that night, and had a chat with my good friend in Yahoo Messenger regarding some issues, and it helped me a lot in knowing what I really want, and how should I tackle the problem. Thank you friend…J

Just as I was about to step in the exam hall at 9, I could noticed a lot of expressions on my friends face. From the over-confident to the “Sure I will Fail” looks, people just have feelings and emotions, and I really want to thank God for that. Without it, we could all be robot, with just buttons all around to be pressed, now, no one wanted to be that I hoped..:) Anyway, while I was doing the questions, things start getting abit whacky. I managed to finished 2 questions before the first 1 hour, and am looking forward to another 2 easy questions. But little do I know, my mind suddenly went BLANK. Yeap, the easiest question (that’s what my friend commented) , which is question 3, I don’t know how to do!! ARghhhhh, crap….and so I was sitting down in the hall, staring at the paper blankly, just as it was given over to me the first time, without any writings on it whatsoever. I couldn’t believe it that I don’t remember what I have studied L
Well, I just move on to the next question, after spending almost 40 minutes staring at the blank paper. Well, I could finished the first part of the next question, but then the second part, Oh O….couldn’t remember formula again, HELPPPPpppp…..was really desperate that time, as it was the last 15 minutes , and was silently muttering a prayer to God for help. 7 minutes left, and there I was like a boxer being beaten to the ground, raising up the white flag of defeat, when suddenly an idea came in to my head on how to tackle the problem, I was so happy for myself, and wrote down what I think was correct, and managed to finished it as soon as the invigilator said” You have 1 more minute…”. God is great, and never will I underestimate Him ever again…:D

Right after my exam, went over to the library to prepare for my next killer paper in the afternoon. Met a few CF friends there, and chatted awhile before getting to studies. I managed to squeeze in a couple more formulas in my head, even after the devastating performance for my just concluded paper. Didn’t really do that well for that, due to the fact I have had no sleep since the day before, and can’t concentrate because of some issues. I just had to leave it to God to comfort me, and to strengthen me.
I went out of the library, wanting to have lunch at around 1.15, and co-incidentally met my friends outside library, who is also having their lunch. We chatted about how to cheat in examination, and I got free bread to eat, hehehehe…..Thanks ya for the bread..:).

The paper that I had in the afternoon was not as bad as I thought. It came out exactly what I have studied, and I was so happy after that. So I went over to Low Yat Plaza right after my test to buy a network card, and an internal modem. Oh ya, I changed my motherboard and got a new graphics card on Monday, and it doesn’t come with an onboard LAN port, so have to manually install one.

Something happened when I was having my dinner at a hawker stall outside Low Yat. While i was halfway through my meal, suddenly the hawkers came running around, shouting in Cantonese ”Keep the Tables, keep the hairs, Quick, Quick, they are coming” . I was wondering, and surprised.” Who’s coming?” Why the hurry to close shop? I was asking myself as I couldn’t think of any reasons. Soon came 2 lorries laden with Enforcement officers from DBKL, and then only I realize, the hawker stalls there are illegal, and they even put chairs and tables on to the walkway, Boy, that was close call. I rushed through my dinner, which is Char Siew Fan, and quickly get out of there. Well people, being a Char Siew Fan seller is not easy also, you will have to put up with Enforcement officers going about raiding and confiscating properties.

Noticed a few “Extraordinary Beings” around KL area, and I guess that’s not uncommon anymore. And why would they want to change their gender? Can’t they be satisfied with the way God created them to be? Hmmm…..this is a tough question to answer. And also I saw fireworks display near the Maybank Tower, were the famous 868 busses are. At first I thought it was the sound of several shotguns firing, and as far as I know, they don’t have a police weapons training school nearby, so I went to the place where people gathered, and I saw beautiful fireworks lighting up the night sky. It was a rare sight to see fireworks this time of the year.

Reached home around 9.30PM, and here I am, telling all of you the history of the life of Jowen on Saturday. This day is filled with activities, from exams to low yat to being chased out from hawker stall….:P Got to get some long deserved rest now.

Good Night People…..

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Die to Grow

It’s 4 AM in the morning, and I haven’t gone to bed yet?? Man, what am I doing? Oh well, my as well just post up my second blog now, hehee..

Killer paper is just barely 5 hours away, and I have accomplished little. Immature as you can say, but I feel like I’ve known all and don’t have to study anymore, but infact I don’t know anything…..Procrastinate is one of the best things I can do besides eating, and sleeping. I guess that’s how I feel about myself now

I was reading the bible just now, and I came across this verse….

“I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.” John 12:24

I always thought I am strong, I keep on holding on to problems, and holding on to life, doesn’t want any intruder to come and mess it up, but as I read this verse, my heart began to sink, and thoughts starts to make its way into my mind. Prior to reading this verse, I made a short prayer, asking the Almighty to show me the way, and to open up doors for my seeming less unending problems. I’ve learned to give up and just let nature do its work. Many a times I wonder, are there any solution out from all the problems that I am facing? Are there anyone who is facing the same thing as me? We are like seed kernels, things of this world may hit us real hard, and we won’t grow. People may start to hurl all kind of insults at us, or accused us of the doings that we have not done, and we get real upset for not getting the things we want, but then hey, we have to die in order to grow!! Just like a seed kernel, unless it is thrown down to the ground, and its surface cracks and open up, that’s where the new shoots will come out, and sooner or later, it will grow up to be a plant. Many times I blame myself for the things that are not working out fine for me, I keep on struggling and struggling, wondering where has gone wrong, but I forgot to give up. I should leave all the impossible things to the All-possible God to solve. Unless I give up on things that I cannot control, I won’t gain anything.

Thank You Jesus for your word that opens up the door of my heart. I want to give up on the things that I cannot control, and I know, that I will be lifted up again by your Spirit.

Song of the moment -> Hillsongs, Blessed


Friday, August 20, 2004

My First Blogging Experience

Well, Hellooooo everyone, here is my first Blog post. i have been wanting to write out my thoughts, and also my feelings a long long time ago, but just couldn't find the time. The time now isn't right for me to blog also, cause i have 2 final papers tomorrow, which carries 8 credit hours!!( for those who don't know what is credit hours, go ask your University peers) and i managed to cover about 70% of all the chapters only.

I should be studying, but then since this is my first post in Blogspot, give me face la, hahhhahahahaha.......

Well, just to intro myself to the world, and to you who is reading this, my name as you can see, is Lo Jo Wen, and it sounds like one of the water heater brand name, Joven. many people do remember my name that way ( Which Way? The water heater brand name lah...), and i am currently 20 years "Young" . I am not old ok, at least younger then those 21 years old out there, hahahhahh (no offence, k??) I am studying in Multimedia University (WOW, what a name) , taking up a course in Information Technology, majoring in Software ENgineering (Yeap, a future Engineer who will revolutionize the world of computers, Bleh...:P).

I think that is all u need to know about me at the moment, you shall know more as the days go by, heheh.....

got to go study now, if not all my sweat n blood and hardwork and time used for study this whole 3 months will amount to NoThiNG. (Did i mentioned b4, if i get excellent grades for my exam, i will get a laptop as a present? now thats what i called MOTIVATION to study)

Jowen (in the mind): JOWEN, get back to study !!
Jowen (physical self): But then i want to blog somemore la...
Jowen (in the mind): U want your laptop or not?
Jowen (physical self): I WANT........:P

*poof* , He's gone.....to be where the bookworms are. C u next round....