Mission Accomplished

Phew....After one week of agonizing mental torture and suffering because of "The Enemy", It's finally gone, and mother earth is well protected again, because of me:P Exams are finally over, and holidays had just started.( Well, it started 4 days ago from this post, hahahaha)

Well, holiday for me will be prettty much the same, sleep, eat, sleep again, and eat again. It seemed to be a routine nowadays, and i already missed the life i had in "The Intelligent City". Assignment, tests, staying up late with buddies....etc...etc......hmm, talking about ungratefulness. Basically i have what i want at home. I have true love from parents and siblings. I had pure homecooked food specially from "Mom's Kitchen", i have all the time i want on the bed, without worrying bout 8AM clases. What else could i asked for man? :P

This past few days, i have been lazying around at home, with my feet hardly even stepped out of the house. but then too much rest will make me into a even more lazier person, so what i have already planned, is to catch up with some games ii quit playing when i was still studying, hahaha......

I will keep you guys updated now and then la, but then it won't be as frequent posting like when i was back in school. but do chat with me in my chatterbox, hehe, till then, CIAOZ....

Happie HOlidays to all MMU-ians ...^.^

Dedicated to You......:)

Friend, I am feeling grumpy
Come into my life and make me happy
Through your words I understand
In your presence, I will comprehend

I am feeling sick and depress
Because of the things that makes me stress
Exams, friends and the rest
I just can’t go on without rest

I just want you here with me
Now that I am sad and moody
For your smiles will make me cheerful
When you are with me, it’s so wonderful

Like the birds of the air so high
I just want to wish you hi
For all the things you have done
It certainly made me want to dance

Though you may not understand
That I really do care and will withstand
Troubles that may arise out of the blues
Because of You, I can do…..

Thank you to you dear friend
For telling me who I really am
I should not have listen to rumors
That make my life goes down the sewers

Updates from the battlefield......

Hey ya people, how are you guys doing? Hope that everybody is fine and great, just like I do.....

Anyway, I just finished a paper, plus another two more to go. The first paper was kind of easy, but still can’t get full marks. The second paper will be less then 24 hours away from the time of this post. I really hope to score for this second test, as I am unprepared till now.

Other then that, everything is fine and great with me, just feeling moody and stress at times. Well, I guess everybody goes through it, sooner or later. Been having a good chat with a friend back at hometown, and eventually, we got to know each other better.

Take care for now, got to get back to polish up my brains, and to battle the second paper….Adieus…:D

To War !!!

Attention Jowen, this is your conscience speaking for the last time. We sensed strong psychic enemies from MMU known as ‘Final Examinations’ that are beginning to invade our brain and mind, destroying every sleep cells, free time and appetite that we have. Intelligence gathered shows that there are currently 3 killer papers heading towards our way, namely Computer Security, Data Mining, and S.A.D. We currently have 80% resistance towards the first enemy, which we will attack in less then 24 hours. ETA arrival time of the next 2 killers will be on Wednesday and Saturday respectively. We have no time to lose, Jowen. Buck up on your studies, and offer up your best fight. We have strong backup from friends and family, as well as standby team from the MMU panel doctors, in-case we are sabotage during the war. We hope that this battle against examinations will be a successful one, and make your family and friends proud. I have full confidence in you, for you will once more conquer the 2^nd semester, which will end in exactly 168 hours. All the Best, Jowen..:)

Over and OUT……

*All the best to my other comrades, who are facing the same enemy type*

Self - Turbulence

" Attention Jowen, this is your conscience speaking. Your final examination is due in 2 days time, and at such, you have less then 48 hours left for study. I noticed that you are still playing games, and compromising on your studies. Please prepare to face the wrath of your parents, and some of your friends. You are advised not to remain in your current carefree attitude, with that procrastination in your mind. Thank You. "

* Oh man....gonna crash anytime soon*

Dear Friends...

When ever you are sad or lonely
Remember you can always choose to be jolly
All these worries and troubles can be deny
Like the birds flying in the sky so high

Through out the years of life
Emotions and problems will occur
But let us not be deprive
Of our happiness and joy so secure

Bleakness, confusion and depression
Are just some of the challenges
That will bring you to a conclusion
That life is fun and filled with surprises

Do take things slow and steady
To prevent us being so clumsy
Or to the extend of being nerdy
Life is more then just being moody

Think of the days
Think of the moments
Think of the things
Which are the compliments

Without struggles
We are just like a little puddle
Without temptations
We are just another life’s illusion

Cheer up to you my friends
For things will be better in the end
Do not worry, things could be worse
For all you know, you may burst

-Jowen-

* Dedicated to my dearest friends who are going through trials*

* I wrote this based on my prayers for all of you and also my hope and wish for all of you all *

I am Back..:D

After 5 days of disappearance from Cyberspace, I am finally back with a bang. Well, for once, I am beginning to feel the tension and the pressure of examination which is starting next week, while I haven’t started revising all that I needed to d. With 3 subjects on my hands now, i just hope that I will be able to pass the exam. These are the account’s of me last week…

Friday

Me and my family went over to Mid-Valley Mega mall to witnessed the Amazing Body Adventure which is held on the 3^rd floor, exhibition centre. It is a huge replica of the human body, with so much to see and do. Throughout the journey inside the human body, I learned much more then I did during science class back in secondary school. I went through the mouth, down the esophagus tube, into the liver, passed by the heart, sinked into the kidneys, and most amazingly, I am able to experienced the inside of a mother’s womb. Yeap, there’s this big balloon like model, where inside are the model of the uterus, the fallopian tube, etc…etc…, I felt being transported back 20 years in time, right to the place where I came out from my mother. I was so touched, and deep in my heart, I thanked my mum for enduring such hardship and pain just for me. Then finally after an hour or so, we exited through the anus, which is the last stop. Well, what thrilled me during this adventure is the time and the effort put in by the people involved. Imagine building up a human body from scratch, in a 5000 square feet hall, and plus all the lighting and sound and creativity, Wow….and also, the experience that I got is priceless, as I got to see how the heart looked like in reality, and not through pictures, how the liver worked, how the kidneys function, how the stomach digest our food, these are all lifelong knowledge, and I am glad to actually come for the adventure. We were supposed to leave in the morning from home, but got delayed till the afternoon, with me unwilling to budge from bed. This is really a cool time for bonding among my family members, and judging by the fact I haven’t meet them for 3 weeks, this trip[ is a blessing in disguise.

Saturday

Went back to my grandparent’s house for the weekends. What greeted me as I stepped foot into the house was the smile by my grandmother, and also my aunt. Me and my dad went straight to clean the house, mowed the grass, trimmed the plants, and swept the porch. It was indeed a pleasant thing to do, besides the usual stuffs I do in Cyberjaya, which is study, play, meetings, assignment…….at least something different…went to the golf course with dad and brothers for a game the next day . although I didn’t score a hole-in-one, but the experience is cool, and nice.

Monday

Came back to the Intelligent City, Cyberjaya, and spend my day in front of books, and also the computer. My housemate was not back yet, so left me alone in the house till about evening. Well, as usual, life goes on until today, with the same thing in and out…

Been trying to pen down a few poems here, but I am still working on it. Stay tuned for more from me..:D

Streamy X !!!!!

Finally after 3 months of putting up with the crappy, lousy, slowy, sucky, always-down internet connection provided by MyKris, with all the pain and suffering endured during this period, a gift falls from heaven and it arrived today…

“Hello, Kami datang nak pasang StreamyX untuk unit ini…. ……..”

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO, StreamyX!!! That was what I always wanted. No more slow internet speed, no more frequent disconnecting from Yahoo! or any services, no more putting up with crappy servers, wow…….that is heaven in CyberSpace…LOL

Thank You Lord for hearing my prayers

Thank You Telekom for responding to our urgent call for streamyX, though it took 2.5 months

Thank you housemates for being patient throughout this trial period, though I know some of you threatened to burn down MyKris’s office

Thank you friends for understanding my internet connection previously, as to why I always get disconnected halfway through a wonderful chat, and then when I got back in, you went offline……

Thank you sooooooooOooooooooooooooo much!!!!!

Relax.Fm

“Hey, is that a new radio station in Malaysia?”

“Eh, How come got this type of channel on Astro one ah?”

These are some of the comments my friend came out with when I told them about Relax.fm. It isn’t any radio channel, nor is it on Astro. It is actually a relaxing, refreshing, nice, cool, fun, entertaining night in CF, where there are free flow of drinks, and also food (Yummie!! ) being served, and super performances by our CF people, multiplying the talents given to them, and at the same time, being able to enjoy the fellowship before the semester comes to an end. It was a night filled with laughter, and the presence of Him can be felt in our midst.

We started the night at around 8.05PM, with Celine as the MC, asking everyone to settle down, for the show is about to start. We had our first band , who called themselves the Rubber-Band, which comprises of WeeLiem, Lenard, and Nicky. They presented us with a song, written by Lenard, and it was a cool song. Had a trio performance by Esther, Lenard and Rachel, where Esther wrote the song herself. Wow, a lot of music composers can be found in CF, and Thank God for all the talents. True to the theme of the night, which is actually Black and White, almost everybody wore black and/or white except for some creative people who doesn’t like black and white, and wore blue and red….i must acknowledged these friends of mine, cause God made colored people, and they are colorful…YEA!! Hehehhe

We had a session on How-To-Eat-And-Drink by CheeYong, and well, we do learned something from there, especially shapes of biscuits, and also the way of dipping chips into Frego cheese sauce, whatever that is…and instead of serving it for the audience, he ate the thing he made himself….That’s the cooking…oopps, I mean the How-To-Eat-And-Drink session which lasted only for 2 minutes…J

Next performance is a dance by two pretty and charming ladies, Audrey and Celine, who did a mime dance on the light and the darkness, on how the light bring the darkness over to its world. It was a dance full of implicit meaning, where we as the people who are somewhat in the dark, strives to find the light. It also talks about how we struggle in life, and how do we turn away from light even thought light comes personally to greet us, just as depicted in the dance. Great performance there Celine n Audrey, Keep it up!!

Then we had a great show put up by Joshua, Chee Yong and Jia Wern. The audience will say out the names of movies, and the three of them are supposed to act out a scenario based on the movie chose. Boss is the ‘host’ for the show, and all of us got our stomach cramped because of laughing, and some were seen rolling on the floor. It was truly an amazing sight, seeing the 3 of them acting spontaneously without professional training, and some of the movie lines they acted from are The Matrix, Kuch Kuch Hotta Hei, Titanic, and the funniest one of all was JackA$$. Hahhaahhahahh…….Great job GuyS!!!

While all these performances were going on, I can't helped to noticed that there were great fellowship between the CF members. There is not much of a time you get to see people sitting in table and chatting away instantly. People from different backgrounds, different personalities, and different attitude, coming together as one united body, helping and upholding each other, and it made me to realized how fortunate I am to live in a multi-racial country, and to serve in a inter-denominational CF, and to have friends from different background as well as different views. The fellowship of believers indeed had been strong throughout the years, and as the semester draw to an end in 3 weeks time, much have been achieved and much had been accomplished through the work and unity of the people here. Thank you everybody for making my life beautiful, and helping me to realized how good life is.

Dr Ian came up with a performance too, which is like a rhyme, and it talks about an old lady who have a great super appetite for animals, and swallowed everything form a spider to a cow. It was fun and hilarious just listening to the lyrics of it. Before this, Kiat Yang came up on stage and taught us a magic trick, and towards the end, the secret behind the trick was revealed, and well, we have no professional training on magic anyway, but we do had a great time, and it made all of us laugh too.

The third last performance of the night, is a dance called the FanDance. It thrills me to see 4 young energetic dancers’ dancing to the tune of an English song. I have only seen Chinese fan dance before, but now, Audrey, Esther, Leona and Rachel gave me a new insight of what dance really is. It was so graceful and how I wished I could dance like that, well ermmm, yea, at least in the future I shall have the courage to do it…

One week ago, WeeLiem asked me whether or not I want to perform during Relax.fm, and my answer was no. I can’t find courage to do it, not that I am a frog singer, nor is it I don’t know how to sing, but the persistency of him asking me to perform brought me over, and 10 minutes before Fandance, I went up and requested to sing. Boy, it isn’t a tough decision to make after all, and I sang a song by Joey Macintyre-Stay The Same. Well, it wasn’t hard to sing, and the decision to sing is of a sudden. I was somewhat nervous when I started to sing, and Thanks to Kae Ee, who accompanied me with the guitar. Well, at least I have found courage to do what I think I couldn’t do. Thank You Lord for Your help, and thank you friends fr your support.

Soon it is time for us to say Bye Bye. But before we close, the Rubber-Band came up on stage, and performed another 2 songs, written by Lenard himself. Those were the memoirs of his life, when he needed God so much. I give credits to Lenard, for writing such cool and meaningful songs, and it really was an encouragement to me. As I sat there for 3 hours, I could sense and feel the presence of God moving, and also the bonding between all of us, and as what WeeLiem said during his final words for the night, that this is the time to chill, and un-wind, and doesn’t matter who you are, just come up and perform for the next Relax.Fm….It gave me the courage and the encouragement to see such an event taking place in the midst of our struggles with exams and assignment…

Before I end this post, I just want to give credits to the people below :

Michelle, WeeLiem, Shen Shee, and Lydia

*For organizing this event, and making us feel really at home.*

All Performers (in no particular order) : Cheeyong, Rachel, Joshua, Esther, Audrey, Celine, Lenard, Nicky, JiaWern, Dr Ian, KiatYang, Leona, Boss & WeeLiem

*You guys rocks while putting up a splendid performance. Keep it up, People!!*

All who helped out in making the food, decorating the place, ushering,

*Thanks for everything, without you all, the place wouldnt have been so nice*

*And finally, To all of you who came for this night, you guys and girls really made a difference in liven up this place. really appreciate you people here…*

Yeeeeeeeaaaaaaa!!!

After what seemed be endless night of battling tiredness and staying up till the wee hours of the morning, it had leave me. I am sad to say…,, but the things that I have been working on every night had finished, and I don’t get to do the stuffs again till next semester….I am gonna miss it…..I’ve sacrificed sleep, meals, and even gatherings, just to get it done, and now it had to leave me. No one could ever share this sorrow with me. L

YEA!!!!! Finally done with my assignments, and how I wished I won’t see them, nor touch them ever again, YEA!!! Just finished the last assignment for the semester, after 1 whole week when I actually started on both assignments. One is a really super SAD project, and one more not-so-sad one. Been having nightmares just to think of the amount of time I spent on it. Day and night, 24/7 had been devoted to this VVVVVIP which is given the honor of being named “Assignments & Projects”, and “Submission” is a name given to the VVVVVVIP when they were to be evaluated by some super high authority council where they are given special name such as “Sir”, “Professor”, and “Dr”.

The past week had been an emo week for me, where I experienced a change externally in life as well as internal changes, which always brings me down to my knees, crying “So help Me God….” It had taught me many life experiences that no book could teach, and no words could explain. It has to be experienced personally, and though the experiences are some what un-predictable, nonetheless it had taught me how to be a better person, and to grow more in maturity as well as to be strong.

Hope that the remaining 2 weeks before the Armageddon (read : Exams) will be smooth sailing for me, without any major happenings where I need to be summoned. I just hope that each passing day, I will be a blessing to others and also I will learn to live life the way life wants me to live.

Below is a poem I wrote just for a friend, who had been with me, and caring for me. Thank You for being a friend…

If life brings me down
I would not have drown
For I have a friend, who will always bound
To help keep me safe and sound

Thank you for your kindness and your care
Through all that had happened, you are there
Risking your life, so I could be spare
Your understanding and love I will declare

We have a lot in common
And you are so fortunate, Jowen
To have such a friend, I am so glad
Without you, I will be sad

THANK YOU!!!!!

If only i could

If only I could be
A person that always will see
The goodness and not the badness
Of life’s so much challenges

If only I could see
The world living in harmony
No war, no famine, no riot
Things would be much better

If only I could reached
The far place without a bridge
Heaven is my destination
And hell is place of desolation

If only I could grasp
The meaning of life so in-depth
I wouldn’t have live life like this
But will strive to at peace

If only I could feel
The passion and the desire so still
The emotions and feelings so real
For I always will prevail

If only I could hear
The sound of thanks giving without fear
The life and mind that had been transform
By the Almighty these things do belong

If only I could say
How much you mean to me this way
Many times I’ve failed in life
But hey, run the race for the price

If only I could
I would be good
But sadly all this are in books
And reality do have its roots
I wouldn’t complain
I wouldn’t be depressed
I wouldn’t have worried
I wouldn’t feel sad
If only I could

-Jowen-

Thank You , Friend

Lord, you are so wonderful
For making my life so beautiful
Throughout my life I will praise you
I will not fear again. phew…..

Every little step I take
I may put my life at stake
But it’s because of you, O Lord
That I learned to give, and take

For all of you who supported me
I just want to say I am pleased
Friendship comes, and friendship goes
But you have seen me through as a whole

Without challenges without pain
I will not know the price of gain
I always do things my own way
But that’s not what the Lord has to say

Come to me, you who are weary
And I will make things easy
Through Me you shall find rest
And through Me you will be the best

Thank You friend for you understand
What I can bear and what I can stand
Without grudges you have been there
Helping me out everywhere

*Dedicated to a friend who has been there for me*
*Thanks for evevrything*

First CG Breakfast - DimSum

I woke up at 5.30AM today with a refreshed and fulfilled mind. This is my first time actually waking up this early for a purpose. SEED and THIRST CG are going for a dim sum party, YEA!!!!! It challenges me to see so many people who turned up for the session, though some tried hard but cannot make it….well, we were supposedly to leave Cyberjaya at 6AM, but due to some constraints, we leaved at 6.40AM, and headed towards Sri Petaling to a restaurant called ‘The Dim Sum House’ .Throughout the journey there, we passed by International Medical College(IMU) and also the famous Bukit Jalil National Sports Stadium. 16 of us were in the group which are assigned with a mission - To eat up everything till there isn’t anymore left . we went there in 3 carsand reached the place around 7.20AM.

Upon reaching the place and taking our seats, the food arrived. This was my firt time eating Dim Sum with University’s friends, though the Dim Sum tradition has been around for 2 years. We went straight into whacking the siew mai, har mai, sui gao, and everything we could lay our hands on (payment were not thought of for 1 hour) we just eat and eat until someone crack a joke. It goes something like ->

“The great balls of dim sum that stick together”.

He’s referring to the siew mai’s which were stick together and he wanted to separate them.. We laughed and laughed till I spilled some tea on my pants, Boy, that was hilarious, and ermm, sexist…hahahahhaa….Great joke there brother, keep up the joking spirit!! We had a wonderful time ordering various dishes, and I’ve not tried Dim Sum for about a few years already. The fellowship of the ring was very good, had several people joking around, and I got to hear that seminars cost a bomb. One person have to pay something like a few thousand ringgit just to hear talks. One commented that every word that one hears during the talks is worth 100 bucks. That’s the business revolution eh, soon now or later people will be paying not for works, but for words. Pretty cool….i am going to be a motivator consultant when i grow up, screw IT, hehehehe..:) (more like a de-motivator, LOL)

We leave the place at 8.25, as some people has to go to work and to do course registration at 9, well, what I can say about today is

-> Daniel , Ben, and Kevin, great job in organizing, appreciates your help verrrrrry much!!!” <-

-> Seed-lings and Thirst-lings, you guys rocks and I am encouraged by the passion shown for CG. Keep it up!! <-

-> Friends from other CG’s, thanks for coming, though you guys are busy with work and assignments….Thanks <-

Now I am back in my house, getting ready for test and assignment submission…..

Depressed -> Relaxed -> Satisfied

I woke up this morning with a burden in my heart. I couldn’t comprehend what is in my mind. The feeling of being abandoned, being tortured, and being left out keeps on appearing and disappearing in my heart and mind. Some how something is wrong with me . anyway, went over to class with the sad feeling, and was feeling down throughout the day. Thoughts of death came out of a sudden, as I finished off my 2^nd class, OMG, It must be all the accumulated stress and pressure that is causing this crap….

”This cant be me, Jowen isn’t like that last time, what happened to me, Oh…..”

This is my thought the whole day in campus. I don’t know what was I feeling, and thinking. All I knew was I am sad and depressed. Didn’t have the usual jovial mood, and slept off in class too, which lasted for one hour. MAN,

“That bad huh?”, You would have asked…

“Yea, kinda screwed up the whole day because of this stuffs….”. Went for lunch alone, and didn’t have much appetite also, hmmmm, met a few of my friends, and we said hi, and that’s about it. Everything seemed so blurry and heavy upon me, and that’s something I wished I didn’t have. Emotions are good if you do know how to control it, but at this sudden moment, I was lost. I was confused, and I was astray……I used to be strong at thee kind of situation, but why not now??

At 5PM, I threw everything aside. I leave everything aside in my house, and went off alone wandering around the dessert city of Cyberjaya. I mount my bike, and went out cycling around the intelligent city for 1.4 hours, and I got to see a lot of new buildings and trees sprouting up from this ‘dessert’. From large huge buildings, to tiny squatters, this isn’t the Cyberjaya I used to see 2 years back, or was it not? This was my second time biking and wandering around the city, the first being last semester, when I first got my bike here, hehhehehe….its a good experience, as I went around, riding my bike like those Le-Tour-De-Langkawi racers, uphill and downhill i went, and nearly knock into one of the dividers, so much for riding freehand, :D

As I got back 80 minutes later, I feel a sudden burst of energy, and the spirits within me sprang up like a lion, waiting to pounce on a deer, and straight away, after I steped foot in my house, I changed and 3 minutes later, I was seen in the swimming pool, doing 30 laps each style. Boy, it was so refreshing, and I shouted as loud as I can from the pool, underwater. Bubbles popped up like boiling water, and everybody, from ground floor to 9^th floor of all 3 blocks, looked down at me ( Hey, but didn’t you say you shouted underwater? ) I hid myself from the world, and feel like staying in the pool for the rest of my life, like a fish, until some people nicely came and spoilt my heaven. Oh well, at least I am refreshed after 40 minutes or so..:D

I was darn tired as I finished bathing, and sat down at my chair, stared at the monitor, and thought of what God said in His word ”Never will I leave you, and never will I forsake you…..” I know what it meant from the start, just that before this I never paid any thoughts upon this verse. It had been on my mind for quite a while, and suddenly, this verse rang a bell (more like hitting a gong) in my head. If God said this, then I shouldn’t be feeling lonely, I shouldn’t have been depressed, and I shouldn’t have said no one cares for me… I was rejuvenated at that point, and feel a sudden rush of adrenaline to finished off my assignment and to read up on tomorrow’s test. The feeling of being spoken to by God is just AwEsOme, and to think of the events that I may do the next day made me even more ‘semangat’. Well, for once, I have not felt anything like this for a long time, and secondly, I have just been appointed. (What is that? Ask me personally..:P) felt satisfied after what happened in the night, and went to bed at 11.45PM

Good Night

What a day....

Been trying to post up something the past few days, but then either I was too busy, or had nothing to write, so here are he accounts of what I did last summer…:D

Tuesday – had CF at night, with the theme, as Tak Nak! Forum, chaired by Michelle, and conducted by 3 panelist, Pastor Richard and his wife, and Pastor Khoo, They answered our question regarding lifestyle, relationship, and many more aspect of our life, and I learned a lot from there. Had a Hi-Committee meeting also at the same time, and thus was away from CF most of the time, though I managed to sit for 30 minutes before going out again. It was rather a fruitful meeting, with every committee members giving report and explaining our problems faced while planning and organizing our respective event. The meeting adjourned at around 2, and had supper after that. This is my first time eating that late, and when I got back home, it was already 3.30AM. boy, I must have gained a few pounds because of the late night food…J

Wednesday – Had CG at night, where we had combine CG meeting between SEED CG and THIRST CG. It was indeed a pleasant sight to see all our former members getting together and praising God as well as fellowshipping with one another. Didn’t had full attendance though, but the turnout was good. Had 2 pretty ambassadors for CG that night, and had a wonderful time of acting and sharing. We acted out a passage from the bible, which is the life of Joseph, how he got his dreams, was sold, accused, and been into prison, and later became the Prime Minister of Egypt. We learned and shared about the characteristic and personality of Joseph, and how we can apply it in our lives. Had a wonderful session with THIRST, and learned a lot as well.

When I am weak
It is when I learned to seek
The treasures that are to be
So lovely and so free

Life is always a challenge
To us it is like a burden
But once we have learned
It is not a hindrance

Thank you for your encouragements
Where I can find refuge and support
It is through you, I overcame my predicaments
And it is through you
I can be like a rock
So strong, solid and hard
With you by my side
What it is to be frust

Life struggles

When I am weak
You lift me up
I found my strength in you

When I am lost
I’m found by you
You never let me go

You are my Lord, I worship you
Bow down before your throne
You are my peace, my strength and my comfort
I’m so in love with you

This is a song which I have been listening to these past few days. It talks about how God love me, and it doesn’t matter in what state I am in now. Just have to trust in him, and He will do the rest….

Been going through some emotional struggles lately, and its not something I wish to be thinking of, but somehow as I grow up, these things are in-evitable. Emotions, love, relationship are just some of the things that go through the back of my mind, every time I sit, or I stand. I am somewhat thankful for that, because that shows that I am growing up, and soon to be a man. Things which didn’t happened 10 years ago, are happening now, things that I have not put a thought of before, I am beginning to take it seriously. Life process is a hard process, and when one manages to get through the stages, this shows the maturity and the confidence one have in life.

Emotional struggles are hard to bear
But that will prove how well I will fare
In future where I will definitely be
A strong man, yes that’s what I see in me

Many times these things happened
Though I have not given a thought
But it has to be now when it happened
So that I can be brought and taught

Many things doesn’t seemed right to me
When I started to be like this
But then hey, life is cool
If I can only be like You

God give strength to the weary
And increases the power of the weak
To God be all the glory
And I shall be the meek